I'd always lavished in the thought of relying on myself and no one else, however as of late certain predicaments have swayed me to lean on others a bit. I rather not say forced for the simple fact that there's ALWAYS a way to go about doing things on your own, and I want to make it very clear how this was a lesson that had to be learned in that which in the past I'd rather suffer or "man up"(for lack of a better term) and do what i had to do on my own. One for enlightenment, and two for the comfort and the ability to enjoy the trait of appreciation.....Sorry, just thinking about how to really say what I mean. I guess simply put I'm learning that although you think you can do it all by yourself, and you may even figure out how to create the illusion of being successful of this, it's not in your design. You need to grasp the idea that it's not in anyones', for this is what gets in the way the falsehood of someone in society getting it done their way on their own often fuels our own dellusions of doing the same when in the end this has never been accomplished by anyway. Proof that this person doesn't exist? There is NO ONE without an enemy, and there is NO ONE without a need. If you had all you needed and no one to take what you had from you once you obtained it all, I can honestly say you would not be of this Earth. It may sound crazy, but is it really? And is it not crazy to think that you're this person, because in very few words I described God. Be it crazy that a human consider themselves to be their own creator.
But as not to go to far off topic, my about face is plain and simple....... I'm seeing me for the first time. After 26 years I know who I am, I'm comfortable with me, and I'm comfortable with my mistakes. I don't faulter under the judgement of others, nor do I turn a deaf ear the advice given. I am now able to move forward because I no longer fear to hold back. That is all.
It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you don't stop. -Confucius
